Preparation????

Is there a life without fear? A life without worries of what might come next? A life where people don't have to suffer? I don't think that is what life means. Life is an effort. A never-ending battle against itself. This is necessary to understand. No matter how hard we try, the inevitable will happen. By that, I am not saying life is already written, but there are some things that cannot be avoided. 

I do try to prepare for this battle. I say 'try' because I am not always prepared. In fact, none of us truly are. The only thing we can do is assume and be ready for it. I am afraid of life. The unknowingness, the complexity, the mystery, the utter darkness that lies ahead, all makes life terrifying and thrilling at the same time. Yet, I can't stop thinking about the scary part. I do try to prepare. I don't know if that's even a thing. Does anyone else try to prepare? Or everyone just goes along with it? I can't wrap my head around the idea of losing this fight. Some enjoy life because they don't know what may come for them, some strain themselves to earn the life of their dreams. Not all achieve success nor all of them fail. It's hard to say who can make it to the top and achieve victory. Life is that much uncertain. So, would it be right to prepare for something that is uncertain?

I don't know what it's going to be like. I can't stop. I don't want to. This may sound ridiculous, but it is what it is. I don't even know if this blog would be read by someone. But, that shouldn't stop us from doing what we want. I have nothing to write. I am just bored and anxious at the same time. Maybe there is a helping hand waiting for me. I'm kidding. Even if there was, I would probably just walk past it without noticing.