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 Everything feels so heavy now. I don't think I have what it takes to keep going. I wish to be dead right now. It wouldn't be so bad if I died right here and now. I cannot take my own life but I do wish I had an accident or a disease which would take me away. It's pointless to stay. If my death could bring comfort to those around me, it would be for the good. I want death to take my life right now more than anything else. From hoping for the well-being of others to hoping for an end, life sure took a turn. I don't know if you exist, but if you do, take me. Take me tonight while I sleep. I don't want to wake up to another day. I know I have promised things to people but I don't think anyone wants that. What's the point of reaching out if there's no one to hear, right? Oh well, this life is done. Maybe somewhere, someday, in another universe I am not so miserable.